awful days again ....
since last conflict with my mum ... i start to hide myself from anybody ... dun wanna talk too much ... tired @ all times.... always lay down on my bed .... sleeping ... playing PSP... realli dun wanna open my mouth to talk ... unhappiness is too much these days...
maybe a good news.... my salary increases again .... but a little ...realli a little ... but better than nothing .... and my superviser said me hv potential to be promoted within the coming yr ..... hahaha... if i get a chance ( a complicated project ) to show my ability........
who cares now ..... mmm..... the more money i earn .... the more money i give to my mum .... my salary is fixed .... haha...

LOST!!

realli tired these days... my flat is being re-decorated and furnished ...actaulli for more than a few months... tons of supports from pricing & contract dept. ..... hurry to meet the deadline for my production control porject.... HEY ... a BREAK pls ...
last weekend was quite an enjoyable one .... after harsh taekwondo practice.... (my toe and leg got hurt) ... went to watch a moive with elco ... Pacifier ... a traditional Disney production but quite funny ....  MAHJONG time again ! but with elco's family ... not realli wanna win ... since ... haha ... play with her parents ... so i just lost a little everything ... HEHE.... then hot pot with her family ..... realli nice dinner ... maybe i realli like to hv super with family members... since i rarely hv it with my own family ...

from next week ...2 more tutorial lessons introduced from elco's mum ... add oil !!! earn more money ... i wanna meet my first target - MY OWN HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I admit it, I'm a closet Disney fan and am delighted that I have an excuse this summer to visit Disneyworld (I'm speaking at a conference in Orlando). Having said that, though, I also have found Disney to be going through a real dry spell with innovations and truly family-friendly products and services. Sure they've expanded the theme parks, but just about all the expansion has been thrill rides like Kilimanjaro that are aimed much more squarely at teens and younger adults than at families with wee ones.

But still, there's Mickey Mouse and the many additional cultural icons that Walt Disney and his team have given us over the years, however much crass capitalists like Michael Eisner later tightened the thumbscrews and changed things (to, I admit, be more profitable and a better run business, but somehow the fun, the heart, the caring seems to have been lost along the way).

Anyway, I'm really delighted to see that Disney is jumping into the world of cell phones and mobile telephony with its upcoming launch of Disney Mobile, and the more I read about it, the more it seems like just what families need to let their children have the connectivity of cellphones while also having limits and controls.

• You sneak out of bed at 5.30 in the morning, just to be able to have a cup of coffee in silence
• You haven't been able to have dinner at the same time as your husband for weeks (a crying baby has had you eating in shifts)
• You pick up things with your toes as your hands are always taken up by carrying children
• You cut your finger and have to wear a 'Dora the explorer' bandaid, which is all you have in the house
• The theme tune to 'SpongeBob Squarepants' is stuck in a loop inside your head (Wo lives in a pineapple under the sea? SpongeBob Squarepants!)
• You lie awake at night wondering how on earth you're going to be able to pack sensibly for an upcoming trip (is it possible to bring the baby swing, car seat and the stroller? Will we be exceeding the luggage allowance on the flight? And how many presents and treats do we need to keep Lucas entertained for the duration of the trip?)
• You start to gravitate towards blogs written by other mums. Their words resonate with you like nothing else can
• And you could totally relate to Felicity Huffman's character Lynette in 'Desperate housewives' when she started to take her childrens' ADD medication just to keep up with her pace of life

Yep, being a mum is a crazy thing. It's wonderful and annoying. A blessing and a curse. You wouldn't change it for the world, yet you fantasize about life without children. You are jealous of your former self, of how all she had to think about was herself & at the same time you cringe at how selfish she really was. Being a mum is the ultimate paradox, a black hole of love, that sucks you in and forces you to lose yourself, yet helps you to find your truer self, there where you lost you (does this still make any sense?)

Anyhow, some of the parenting websites and blogs that I have come across and liked:

1. Five minutes for mom. They were even so nice to add my blog to their site and to interview me as well
2. Parent center. They send me weekly updates on baby's developments. It tells us what we can expect at each stage, which is great as we don't have many other babies around us to measure Aidan's development against
3. The mommy blog. Made me laugh out loud. Especially the part about traveling with young children (she deals with the same pre-travel anxiety as me)
4. Happiness is a good nap. Sweet personal blog by a single mother of two
5. Natural parenting. All about attachment parenting
6. Dr. Sears website. His 'Pregnancy' book & 'The Baby' book are my bibles
7. Think twice. Are you debating whether or not to vaccinate? Make sure you read this website.

And finally, you know you're a mum when it takes you at least 10 attempts to write a short blog like this....